Mad At Life adn VideoGamez

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I am mad at life these days, mostly because I wantr to do those same things that ppl do in movies, videogaems, books, anything, where they understand what they did wrong, grow up, help ppl, and i want to do the same.

one problem; do those things even exist?

ive been reading lots of z articles on zi adn zu about childhood, faith, adn how its all mixed in. adn now im still having these little fights with myself-

• Kids are supposed to let go of the tree to grow up; what in teh world do i have to let go of?
• Where is this stupid tree?????????? How do I know the time it is to let go?
  
• How can you have faith if you're never taught it? How can u show faith if there's nothing to believe in?
  
• How can u help people if the circumstances and your true nature don't allow it?
• Do people really think of others as their friends?
• What is the right thing? How do you know its teh right thing?
  
• What is the true face face underneath peoples' masks?
• How is it, to accept change when it never comes?

Stupid Majora's Mask. It gives you so much insight on the world, but tehn when you actually ahve teh information sink in, tehres this huge battle focusing on life.

The Tree of Immortality. A huge playpen. Once you wonder what's outside teh paypen, you decide to venture out and explore waht is beyond it. You let go of teh Tree.

That's all very well in a world made of pixels. What about teh real world? What do we real poeple ahve to let go of? To do waht is so-called growing up???

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Ok I'm done ranting. I'm working on my new Blogger template- the main theme is Black Comic. The one right now is Blue Leaves. See? i'm not the only one who is bad at naming things.

Ah...... WW Music is so calming. Especially with teh HQ of Zreo. I've been listening since "Outset Island" adn now I'm on "Graaandma". Dudes, did you know that these Zreo People make too many reduxes of the same song? I mean, there's like, 2 "Outset Island"s adn one Soundscape, which is pretty cool, and there's teh same for "The Great Sea". But there are no reduxes for TP!!!! How could they do it for the most realistic game of teh series adn teh latest console game??? Evilz.....

Well Now I ahve to at least trya dn finish coloring teh header. T-T. Photoshop is actualy working well with me today. :)

Also, my Mom got a new computer and she has Adobe Photoshop CS 4 and she doesn't even use it while I'm teh one whose drawing all th time adn I ahve a crappy CS. My dad offered to install teh 4 but I gues I can wait. After all, I still need to install my enw Bamboo tablet. I eamn, it costs eanr 1000 dollars and I still havnt installed it but I'm still suing my 2 year old F610? Crazy, dontsha think?

Anyways, "Pirate Ship" is playing adn I ened to finish shading teh header.

KATENGERI!!!!!!!!

-chiao

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EDIT

And if you want to read those articles I was talking about, click on these::

http://www.zeldainformer.com/2008/05/the-message-of-majoras-mask.php#more

http://www.zeldauniverse.net/articles/the-missing-link/immortal-childhood/

These two articles is whewre I get my so-called philosophical ideas from. Very good articles, unless you know what teh games are about you won't understand anything, but they can really ger u thinking. Like "let go of teh tree" matephor. But really, in this day and in this world, we don't rally ahve much to let go of..................

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List Post- 10+ Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 15

Ok. *copy adn pastes title* muahahahha!

"10+ Things I Want to Do Before I Turn 15"

This was the result of an idea that cam to me in Lowe's when I was picked yup by Trili's dad from meh fwend's Caroline's B-day party (we went bowling) Dn so he told us to statw iht trili's little sister in the fan isle and so there was this awesome fan made of skatoboards.

And that got me thinking. I explained to Trili that skateboards are epic adn that I want to know how to ride one. And so I amde a couple manga-poses of me "riding a skateboard-failness" and she talked about her fwend Clara and how shes learning how to ride a skateboard. And I said I was jealous.

And so now I'm writing some things that I want to do before I'm 15. And these are listen in teh order they come in my ehad: nawt from waht I want the most to teh least.

1. Learn how to ride a skateboard-- my mom will totally disagree wiht this but I want to learn how to do it. I eman, in movies adn in manga and in media the main char always is in trouble and they always have teir skateboard wiht them adn they survifve. The only mode of transportation I ahve is my two feet. And that is so nawt cool.
   
2. Speak semi-fleuntly in 4 launguages-- Ok this one is a little more understnadable. I want to learn 2 more alunguages in addition to the 2 I speak fluently right now. I speak Englsih and Russian adn I wan to semi-fluently speak Japanese adn French. I know that having all these launguages can help me in the future. After all, if I want to work in videogames, I need to know Japanses, adn if that doesnt work out, I can still translate things, like englsih to russian/french. :)
3. Make my own finished manga-- I have tried to make a manga called "The Two Pillar Sign/ Zodiac Crusaders" (yeah dumb name but its all I can think of-wiht teh help of Musey) and I wuickly got to 12 pagers, but then got bored. I tried to loosely base it off of my personal life (like the book is a representation of my own life- a journal). Ad it fdailed since I lost the folder in which I kept all the pages. I know the story, I might revisit it again someime... But now I know more so it can be better. Than it was in April.
4. Designh my own calendar and post it online-- Ok so on dA thres this option of making a calendar and selling it so I'm gonna try and make one. It might be the simpistic type, but I'm still a drawing fledgling (haha pun of Pichi Pichi Pitch).
5. Get an artists' job that pays fairly well-- For exaple the Hightlishts children's magazine example. I wanted it, but I still ahcnt finished it. So yeah. Once i finish this psot I will fnihsh the girl sample (T-T). But I want it as a regular job. Like, I need more than one project. Like a I owe them a pic every month. Or somethign like that.
6. Compose my own more than 1 min song-- This came from nowhrere. I have a little thing about meh piano- I love it. I play on it everyday. And sometime before sumer I wrote down this little melody and I made it inot a 30 second song. I can't exacctly give ur the notes, or the name (at first it was leafgirl, then the dance of teh lily of the valley, but non eseem to fit). But I am toally determinied to create my own little composition that is worthy of a title.
7. Learn how to play 2 pocket instruments-- Well, ur bored, wiht friends, adn in total need to prove urself with your geekyness so u take out ur ocarina adn some other pocket instrument adn toally rox their sox off. Done, done, adn done.
   

Oh wow. I said 10+ but I ahve only 7 *manga-scrath-behind-head*

Ah well.

C yaz.